Monday
May 31, 2010
Mgdln Abyss Working.....Perhaps the most difficult things to give up are not those one wants to keep but those things that one may not want but are ingrained in the sense of self.
Maggie....perhaps the only thing a magician truely owns is their faults. Perhaps it is easier to leave the perfected selves than the damaged selves.

Tuesday
June 1, 2010
There is an odd sound on my audio recording at the swamp. it shows up in a number of the segments of the recording. Gutteral clicking...almost metalic.

Wednesday
June 2, 2010
New Orleans Voodoo Spiritual Temple...drum prayer in courtyard. I follow the sounds of the drum into my self.

Ritual: Oil Will: The spirits of the waters push the oil back into the pipe.
Love: Levee. Rhythms to Legba open and close the gate. gate
Success: Clearer mind / more committed to the stoping of the oi

Thursday June 3, 2010
New Orleans Voodoo Spiritual Temple....
RITUAL: Drum Prayer Oil Will: Oil back down the pipe Love: Legba and Bamboula rhythms
Success: Again I was advised to clean my own internal "Oil" out. All of the weak and poluted emotions, thoughts, selves. Bamboula rhythm appeared to be good for this. Ah! yes, bringing the self to order.......bringing the house to order...bringing the Mar Assi, the Gulf, to order. he twins are out of balance.

Friday June 4, 2010
I burnt out. Too much. The oil the birds the hurrycanes, economy....all to gether. Refuge in Nuit. I got into bed and set my mind on basic body sensations. The feel of the pillow and cover on my skin."Nuit is your refuge." Could not fight any more and there is no dishonor in finding refuge. Like Crowley said, the magician should find their limits.
I was careful to show this weakness to Mshln. So often I am the strong one. She needs to know that we are all in this balttle together. She took care of me which made her feel better, strong. I believe that illustrates a great benifit to others in showing personal weakness.
RITUAL: For Nola: bad reaction to wasp sting. Will: Healing Love: Offering of sugar to insect loa. Called in favors I have done for them to help in Nola's healing. Annie Christmas...Dad's machette in ground with water running down blade (Al rivers run together - Jessica) as a magickal link. Success: Nola well Treated in hospital by Dr. Blackman

Saturday June 5, 2010
I've reassembled a strong self and can hear the Angel again today. She said "Need" is from the Old Norse nauthir which means "distress or compulsion." You can not fight well if you are motivated by compulsion or distress.

Sunday June 6, 2010
Preparation for Babalon. The ritual of the Order of Service is set and valuable as it is. The other ritualI am to do is much more open. having the angel speak through the drums of the ritualists is worthy. I would like to include the oil.


Friday June 4, 2010
I burnt out. Too much. The oil the birds the hurrycanes, economy....all to gether. Refuge in Nuit. I got into bed and set my mind on basic body sensations. The feel of the pillow and cover on my skin."Nuit is your refuge." Could not fight any more and there is no dishonor in finding refuge. Like Crowley said, the magician should find their limits.
I was careful to show this weakness to Mshln. So often I am the strong one. She needs to know that we are all in this balttle together. She took care of me which made her feel better, strong. I believe that illustrates a great benifit to others in showing personal weakness.
RITUAL: For Nola: bad reaction to wasp sting.
Will: Healing
Love: Offering of sugar to insect loa. Called in favors I have done for them to help in Nola's healing. Annie Christmas...Dad's machette in ground with water running down blade (Al rivers run together - Jessica) as a magickal link.
Success: Nola well Treated in hospital by Dr. Blackman

Saturday
June 5, 2010
I've reassembled a strong self and can hear the Angel again today. She said "Need" is from the Old Norse nauthir which means "distress or compulsion." You can not fight well if you are motivated by compulsion or distress.

Sunday June 6, 2010
Preparation for Babalon. The ritual of the Order of Service is set and valuable as it is. The other ritualI am to do is much more open. having the angel speak through the drums of the ritualists is worthy. I would like to include the oil.